Look who’s talkin!

Today is 20.05.2005.
What a nice date to remember

Best is when its FRIDAY.
And a long weekend too!

I rarely have dreams, and when I do, they’re usually pretty weird or not all that fun.
Most of the time, if someone asks me about my dreams, I don’t really have anything to say.
I just don’t seem to dream that often.
Sometimes I wonder if that’s normal, so now I’m curious to learn more about how dreams work.

Dreams are a communication of body, mind and spirit in a symbolic communicative environmental state of being. Different states of consciousness (like awake, asleep, alert, drowsy, excited, bored, concentrating or daydreaming) cause different brain wave activity. Our conscious mind, or the part we think with, our “window” into life, only takes up a very small portion of our brain activity. (some say this is only 10%) Other areas control things like breathing, heartbeat, converting light to vision, sound to hearing, balance when we walk, etc. etc. This too has its own percentage (small). Another area controls imagination. This area is widely an undiscovered frontier. Imagination is more than dreaming of a new car or picturing someone with their clothes off! When you look at clouds and see shapes, or wood grain and see images, this is the “order from chaos” part of your imagination. The mind cannot deal with chaos very well; in fact, it will resist it and sometimes manufacture order. (very important to the dreaming process). This too occupies a small percentage of brain activity. Then there is memory. Memory is vast! And I believe it occupies more of the brains resources then most people believe.

Source from http://www.sleeps.com

Wow! There’s even a section on dream analysis.
I’m not sure how accurate it is, but I often dream about death.
According to that section, such dreams symbolize change.
You guys should check it out the Dream Analysis!

My colleague Keat tempted me with reviews and photos of the new Perodua MyVi.
It looks tiny, adorable, and totally suits me!

I’m still not sure which colour to choose.
Black or orange?

More MyVi pictures at: http://paultan.org/archives/2005/05/19/perodua-myvi-colours-the-myvi-rainbow-p/

I’m still searching, but this cute one costs about RM45K to RM48K.
Why is it so expensive?

I might have to work pretty hard to pull this off.
Alright. It seems it’s time for me to put in more effort so I can one day own my little dream car.

Let’s get back to work.
Work and work harder!

It’s been pretty hectic lately.
just work, work, and more work.
A bunch of ex-colleagues have moved on, so we’ve had loads of farewell parties.
Honestly, I guess we’ll run out of parties at some point.

Lately, I’ve just been feeling really tired.
Both mentally and physically exhausted.
My current job feels like it’s draining all of my energy.
And my dad keeps calling and asking me to switch jobs again; he’s back in that mood.

It’s frustrating when others don’t get why I do what I enjoy, but I’m simply being myself.
There’s no reason to force myself into things I dislike and complain about.
As the Chinese saying goes, 吃的苦中苦方为人上人.
Sigh! -.-“

The saying “forget and forgive” has been popping up everywhere lately.
Why? Apparently, there are news stories saying Japan might be trying to change how it talks about what happened in World War II.

Naturally, the public especially the people in the impacted countries were not pleased.
They strongly objected on their actions, sparking intense debates on local TV and radio.

Many criticized their actions and called for a public apology for such act.
While some advocated a “forget and forgive” approach, I question whether people truly can do so.

Personally, I might be able to forgive, but forgetting is another matter.
In situations like this, it’s much easier to say you’ll let go than to actually do it.

People who can forget and forgive are likely those who were not involved, did not experience the event, or were born after that era without living through its fear, pain, hunger, or torture.

If everything were easily forgotten, history, innovation, and milestones would not exist.
In reality, some things are unforgettable.

Was it yesterday or today?
It feels like time has gotten away from me, and it’s all starting to blur together.

I’m not in the mood, probably because I didn’t get any sleep last night.
Maybe it was the rain—it kept starting and stopping all night long.
Now I feel completely exhausted, almost like my brain has shut down.

I can’t sleep, I can’t smile, I can’t laugh.
Most nights I just end up staring at that empty playground across from my place.
Honestly, it’s been ages. Like 7 months, maybe?
Out of nowhere, I get the urge to head over to the playground, sit on a swing, and just feel the breeze for a bit.

How long have I been here, staring at the empty playground and swing?
It’s so quiet tonight.
Just my breath and the sound of rain.

I’m wondering if I can just fall asleep now.
I’m really tired, or maybe not.
I hoped that watching something funny would make me laugh a lot and help me get sleepy, but it doesn’t seem to be working.
I haven’t cracked a smile, and my eyes still aren’t closing at all.

And surprisingly, it rained again.
Hate it when it rains so much.

Stop! Rain, rain, go away.
Tomorrow will be a new day.

Brain fried — describes the state of being so exhausted that you can’t think clearly.

The biggest issue is losing electricity and Internet, which delays work.
It’s frustrating to travel to 1Utama just to get connected.
Hope things improve tomorrow; the frequent trips are getting irritated and tiring.